"Are you going alone?” the inevitable question prior to my 6 week pilgrimage to India. One end of the spectrum, transmuting other people's fear for me, at the other, feeling their excitement and a palpable beyond-blessed feeling. Two days before leaving, following the whispers of my heart, I made the difficult decision to postpone my trip. Now in hindsight, with lots of time to reflect, I recall the quiet and shadowy whisperings of my heart, IS this too good to be true?” “Why am I so fortunate?"
I recall feeling so elated, a surreal sensation, that I thought this indeed might be “the last amazing experience I have”. That THIS was IT. I even wrote a Will. I felt that I might die. Indeed, I befriended that yes, a part of me would die.
With my roots in Shamanism, this presented the perfect opportunity for me to face my fear of death, to liberate, to answer my soul’s call and to turn the page and transcend the personal, to say my I love you’ s and not allow fear to claim me. I continually worked with this, especially in the week prior to my departure asking myself;
What do I need to die today in peace?
In the early stages of planning, India beckoned me, stronger and stronger there was a subtle sense of urgency for me to leave, to see India, to be in India “before it changes’. Unbeknownst to me, NOW this makes a bit more sense, because EVERYTHING has changed, and though I am disappointed that I am not there, I feel strongly that everything I studied and did to prepare for that epic journey is now holding me in our present reality of THIS epic journey. We are in the midst of a global transformation. We are witness to and an integral part of, a momentous shift in consciousness.
Allow me to share this message from White Eagle, Hopi Indigenous on March 16, 2020.
"This moment humanity is going through can now be seen as a portal and as a hole. The decision to fall into the hole or go through the portal is up to you. If they repent of the problem and consume the news 24 hours a day, with little energy, nervous all the time, with pessimism, they will fall into the hole. But if you take this opportunity to look at yourself, rethink life and death, take care of yourself and others, you will cross the portal....What world do you want to build for yourself? For now, this is what you can do: serenity in the storm. Calm down and pray. Everyday. Establish a routine to meet the sacred every day. Good things emanate, what you emanate now is the most important thing. And sing, dance, resist through art, joy, faith and love. " - White Eagle, Hopi
I FEEL this.
The need for us to hold the light and keep our vibration high is key. This is not to say we won't have days where we are struggling, on the contrary, this is supposed to be uncomfortable. Change is uncomfortable. In Puma Fredy Quispe Singona's words, "no one gets to skip this." Puma's online ceremony really supported me to feel deep in my bones that we are all an integral part of this process and we need to choose LOVE.
Watch Puma here.
He shared many things, including the importance to be in harmony and connection with Pachamama, Mother Earth. To respect, honour and have deep reverence for her. She is the medicine we need most of all. She is the air we breathe. The work we do is always about coming into balance (ayni) and reciprocity in all our relationships, specifically with Pachamama and The Apus, the Mountain Spirits. (Beings of Light)
To brave this storm, be like the mountain, able to stand strong and rooted deep into our Mother, no matter the weather, we still stand strong. Be like the Mountain. Feel your feet and grow your roots deep into the centre of Mother Earth, feel her vitality, she will share it with you. As we are filling up, she is filling up. When we heal ourselves, we heal our planet. Come into right relationship with all that is, especially with ourselves. Love is All.
Our greatest act of service is to vibrate at the highest frequency of Love and Gratitude.
Know deep in your bones that the natural forces of light, sacred forces, are looking after us right now. Ask for guidance. We are not alone in this process.
Pray, dance, sing and go within.
This new life brings balance, liberation and transcendance.
Choose the portal. Love yourself and others unconditionally.
Maintain yourself in Love. Light Hearts, Vibrate High. Stay Light. Love is All.